Keşan/Kaletepe, Nisan 2021
Love. In my native language,Turkish, there are 2 types of love and 2 different words for describing the love for your partner and the love for your friends, family, relatives, your pet etc. That’s why I cannot understand which unrequited love described but since I have a vibe unrequited poem is for a partner or potential partner I will assume that I love someone but he doesn’t love me back which is I am quite sure every human being had an experince about it.
Actually I feel sorry about the missing opportunities and unlived moments, there was a feeling I have in my early puberty era, it was very hard to describe the exact feeling but it was like a knife but made of a bone stabbing me from middle of my ribcage one after another until I’m out of breath and cannot think of any positive thoughts, this was the first emotion caming into to catch me. Right now since I’m a little -very little- bit mature I can control my emotions much more at least there is no bone knife but just bare hands squizing my heart which is much more coping.
The strong effect of undesirability is unbearable for us as human, first you feel your heart is exploding, your brain cells are longing for connection but in reality how can you be happy if you would be with someone that does not want you him/her side, but until you realize this is the rational way of thinking you had to be experienced.
The most precious thing you do when you feel unwanted is waiting for your emotions to be settled without calling for help from others, in the end the human being can adapt any so many painful stories, the most important thing that we need to remind ourselves daily is whatever we feel right now it can be more bearable tomorrow.
[p.s I know it supposed to be a poem but even in my native language it is so challenging for me to write a poem that pleases me so let’s pretend it’s not :)]
Next Day: The Vessel. Write about a ship or other vehicle that can take you somewhere different from where you are now.